Saturday, January 28, 2012

It's a..........

teeny feet:)

Little munchkin kept yawning during the ultrasound....guess we are boring HER already!

Brent and I are floored!  We both honestly thought it was a boy!  We are so thrilled that she is healthy....and the technician even admitted that she had a beautiful nose (because, come on folks, that's all that really matters - haha!)  I am so thankful for all the prayers, support, love, and encouragement everyone gave me yesterday.  God truly shows His love through others:)

Friday, January 27, 2012

Today's the day!

I am officially 20 weeks today, and Brent and I find out whether this teeny baby will be sporting shades of pink or blue this afternoon. I have to admit I am a bit nervous, well actually REALLY nervous. There are the obvious concerns that everything will be healthy in the ultrasound.....naturally all pregnant women worry about that. But I'm also just super anxious about finding out the sex. I had always said that I was going to wait, just like my mother and her mother and her mother and so on.... But then when I first got pregnant, all I could think about was knowing. Now that the time is here, I'm not so sure I want to know!

A friend of mine said something that seemed silly at the time, but has made a lot of sense to me in the last few weeks. She admitted that she was excited to find out the sex, but that she also felt like it limited their hopes for a quick minute. If it's a girl, those visions of playing ball and fishing are out the roof. If it's a boy, I'll have to do away with my dream of braiding hair and sewing cute skirts (naturally). Everyone says it makes it more real when you find out the gender....which is true and maybe I am a bit scared of that. It's not like it hasn't been real yet - like gaining weight, having back pain, not sleeping, and leaving the alcohol band wagon haven't made it real enough!  But reality sets in in the second half of pregnancy, and there is no turning back!

Confession: I AM nervous about it becoming more real - the unknown in my future. I don't doubt that I will be a good parent. But there are so many questions and everyone who has been through it before has an opinion.....and sometimes it's a negative one. It's almost like they feel the need to rant about how awful those first few months are and how your life will never be the same..."enjoy your life while you can" hopes that it will change their past. I can't tell you how many times I have wanted to slap these people...literally. Yes, it will be hard. But maybe that's not the best thing to tell a girl who's already pregnant (and hormonal), as if I could undo what's been done now because of your story. I know they mean well, but I just can't focus on that and I have to believe that I will still maintain an identity as a person, not just a mother. I think it's imperative for my marriage and my friendships. So, my point is this.....

As we prepare to become parents in an even more real sense, I am scared and excited all at the same time to add the role of mother to my life. But I am still a loving wife, caring friend, dependable worker, enthusiastic water skier and crafter....I just will learn how to better balance all these together come June:)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Lotsa changes for 2012.....

I'm sorry I haven't blogged more often....BUT....I've been busy!

Baby Talley is due June 15, 2012 and we are so excited!  

I've wanted to announce this for awhile, but know the risks of telling too early.  I am almost 17 weeks and feeling awesome! Besides being hungry ALL the time, I have no complaints and have had no sickness (I know this will make some of you very angry at me as I am well aware that most pregnancies are not this easy).  I am keeping a positive attitude that all will continue to go well for the next 5 months:)

Some facts:

-craving burgers, avacado, salsa, and jalepenos; also cereal (but that's nothing new) and omelettes

-gained 4 pounds so far (I know this will increase dramatically in the next few months)

-wearing maternity pants already (demi band styles from Gap fit great - full belly still too big)

-still wearing my shoes - I'm paranoid that I wont be able to fit into my cute shoes, after all a pregnant girl has to rely on colorful accessories when all maternity wear has to offer is black pants and jeans! Fingers crossed!

-walking semi-regularly (I say semi because I seem to be in a rut the past few weeks)

-no idea at all what the sex is - I really don't have a "feeling" as they say; I've always wanted a girl, so I've mentally prepared for a boy (Don't get me wrong, I will be happy either way, but let's face it, everyone deep down has a preference at first, right?!)

-names already decided on - I told Brent that I wanted to decide on names before I became "hormonal" in fears that I would rashly push for some outrageous name in my non-human state

-emotional state - easily irritated (I apologize to everyone I've come in contact with, as my fuse is VERY short these days), and crying at almost anything remotely sad (Thanks, Hallmark Movie Channel, for letting me unleash all emotions over your sappy and heart warming movies this holiday season)

- clearing out the house BIG TIME - losing an entire room and closet in the house is tough, but we are enjoying down-sizing, it's liberating to get rid of things and donate to those who really need them

13 weeks, probably more bloating than baby...but it's always fun to show a baby bump - finally!

14 weeks

I've missed weeks 15 and 16, but will upload a 17 weeks soon:)
Thanks to all my friends and family who have been praying for a healthy pregnancy and baby, and who have been there to guide me through this new phase in my life.  I will update more often now that I don't have a big secret to hide:)  I wish everyone an awesome 2012 filled with love and laughter!