"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." (Mother Teresa)

I thought it only appropriate to post today....although the pain that was felt 11 years ago is something that lingers daily for those who were impacted.  I am constantly reminded how precious human life is, but also how great our need for relief from suffering is.  Pain is all around us...in the car behind me, on the face of the student sitting in my class...its so disheartening.  We are always so touched by any news story that has the slightest hint of a positive outcome, and it shouldn't be that way.  We are so conditioned to see pain as the norm, and happy endings are few and far between.  It makes no difference what your political beliefs are, whether you are religious or not....the need for salvation from our pain is evident.  We live in a time where your life is not your own...just going to the movies, to the mall, or driving to work can mean an end to your life.  Sometimes I look around at all this misery and chaos and wonder why I even would bring Emma into this world.  What will it be like when she is older?  Will it be worse?  Will it be better?  Will she know of a time where fear is not a constant factor?  Will she be able to live her life with her guard down, enjoying the little things?  Or will she always be looking over her shoulder, always worried?  We are such a selfish bunch...humans.  I believe we are selfish by nature, and I also believe that life makes us even more selfish.  There are so many people who resort to selfishness because no one is there for them...no one is there to love them..to affirm them daily....to tell them they are worthy and valued.  I can only start today and make sure that those around me feel truly loved and cherished. 

My dearest Emma, May you always have this bright smile and the widest eyes ready to take on everything that God has planned for you.  You are a most precious gift that I am not worthy of receiving.

My boo...Brent, you make life the beautiful, hilarious, and loving ride that God intended it to be for us.  I am in awe of who you are daily.

Daddy...I hope you NEVER lose your sillyness.  The most precious lessons you have taught me are how to live selfless, and how to joke...what more is there to learn?

Mom, I hope you always have this peaceful glow.....a sense of feeling loved and loving another.  May your life be always filled with this sense of calm and value..resting in the arms of someone that loves you.